Archives for the month of: August, 2008

I woke to flashes of light and the hope of a drumming storm. It was hours later before the rain came with the far off distant rumble of thunder. 

I have never welcomed the fall, nor the winter, but always reveled in  warm summer rains. In my young days rushing out with no umbrella to let the freshness of it wash over me, renewing my spirit.

It’s not as fresh as it was 30 or 40 years ago, now bearing bits of smog, dust from traffic, bits of human skin..yes even that dust finds its way outside…so many more humans per mile then times before… it does not smell the same. But even so, it is still fresher than the heat wave just passed. Fresher than the air which hung stagnant in smog the day before. And still greatly loved and appreciated.

I don’t go out this time..is it the arthritis, or the Pjs I dont want neighbors to see me in?

It doesnt matter. I enjoy the smell of it the sound of it, doors and windows full open.

I only wish the thunder were closer, the mornings lightening richer. A little storm after a heat wave, is always welcome.

While employed I kept hearing the great debate, economic downfall, recession, vs others who say its all hogwash. and now, here I am on the unemployed side and it doesn’t feel like hogwash.

It’s been 4 weeks since the “can” day and UI still not approved. Family says not to worry my circumstances are exactly what UI is for and that they are just short-handed. They being the state.

I fill my days looking for work, anything, even contractor work but no nibbles and word has it there are 100 of me for every job posted. Hard to get past that crowd when many of the hiring sites use forms with no section for pitching yourself apart from the sea of many.

REbuild and redesigned my website. I was surprised how much Id forgotten code-wise. spoiled in my last job mostly design and barely code.

I use html, CSS, javascript and PHP but my skills in the latter two are so minor I dont feel its right to call my self a web developer and I am surprised to see some companies still list web developer jobs as web designer jobs even when MEGA code is required.

Ive always been told that employers who want it all either dont care about quality or are so out of touch with what peoples real skills are that they don;t understand jack of all is master of none.

But master of all is what they all seem to want.

I know coders who say they can write javascript but never wrote a line from scratch in their lives…they do what I do, acquire scripts and tinker them into what they need. But employers who dont understand javascript never know the difference. Even so, I dont have the kahoonies to bald face lie and call myself a javascript queen. Im not.. So I minimize instead of maximize my coding skillset when I apply.

Im a designer and proud of it. My coding skills enhance that. It should be enough. will be enough for the right team of people.

Sad to say my oldest, Michael, just found out his lovely lady lost the baby that they both really wanted… but they aren’t sure how it happened. She was only 6-8 weeks..so I guess you could lose it and not know it until you had a blood test? Ive never lost a baby so I don’t know anything more than how sad it is.

My son Jason lost a baby too several years ago his first when his lady was about 3-4 months. when you really want the baby it doesnt matter if its 8 weeks or 8 months, it hurts.

This is one place where a mom doesnt know how to help. I hope they will some day try again but I can understand if there is a reluctance to pursue another chance. My fingers are crossed that maybe they will.